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Still a spinster, and I live alone with two cats. I would call myself a "crazy cat lady" but my saving grace is that I think technically you have to have at least 7 cats to be an official crazy cat lady...

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Listening

 Chick Music mostly, Dar Williams, Susan Werner, Eva Cassidy; also 80's tunes and the Alarm

Reading

Finished everything I have, I need to find a new author to get hooked on...

Viewing

 Right now I'll just admit to House and Lost ;)

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

 I can't win...

So lately I've been all about drinking my 8 glasses of water a day. (GO ME!)

I have a cup that fits 16 oz, so I just need to drink 4 of those. Easy right?

I kept losing track of how many I had drunk.

So I had a brilliant idea- I got rubberbands, and I would put one around the cup each time I drank one.

Now I keep forgetting if I had already put the rubberband on or not.

I think I've had 10-14 glasses of water a day because of my total airheadedness. I may have set a new world record for how many times peeing in one day. I make sure I get my 8 (that I have actually counted, but more like 10 or 12) early enough that it doesn't disrupt my sleep. But it still does.

The good news is I'm very well hydrated!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

 Contrary to popular belief, Kmart doesn't suck...

However, Rite Aid still does.

Today I switched my prescription to the Kmart pharmacy because I never heard back from Rite Aid that they addressed my issue with them.

I go to Kmart just about every week to buy cat food (yes, it's cheaper there than anywhere else I've found, although the litter is way more expensive than the grocery store, go figure) so it's just as convenient to go there. Plus they gave me a $20 in gift cards for transferring my script, so it's win/win!

Oh and a bonus- my prescription at Kmart was 68 cents cheaper than at Rite Aid and it only took her about 4 minutes to fill it :)

So although Rite Aid Eric was great for reaching out, somewhere after him a ball got dropped. RA Eric, I'm sorry your company sucks. But at least you get paid to google :)

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

 Not like before...

So back in jr high, high school and college I was a big journaler. I realized though that I really only wrote when I was blue. In fact, if one were to read those journals, one would think that I was the most depressed person on earth.

But the fact was that I didn't need to write when things were going well. I used that writing to get through the bad times. It worked for me.

Of course once someone did happen to read one it ruined it all for me. I never felt safe again putting those deepest, darkest emotions down on paper again.

When I first started this blog I mentioned that. And I said that if I wrote knowing people would read, that maybe I would be able to do some type of journal again, although this time it would be an online one.

If you have been a long time reader though, you have seen times when I don't write for a while. And you know what's going on during those times? Unlike my previous journaling life, those are not the times I'm happiest. Those are the tough times when I just can't bring myself to write here. I can't truly share my sadness with the blogosphere, so I just stay away.

So yeah, it's been a tough couple of weeks for me. I got my hopes raised for something amazing and then they were smashed and crumbled. It's really hard to keep having hope when stuff like that happens, you know? And everyone kept saying stuff like "it wasn't meant to be" or "something better will come along". But you know what? There's only so many times I can hear those platitudes before they drive me freaking nuts. Sometimes, it just sucks. Plain and simple.

I also had some anniversaries that caused some introspection.

None of this is stuff I really wanted to put out there in specific details.

But I felt like I should check in and say that I'm alive, I'm surviving, and I hope to get some hope back soon... I'd really love to have lots of happy stuff to write about.

Friday, May 22, 2009

 Another Friday Shuffle

So my shuffle today is pretty random, as usual. No Dar, which is very unusual, but 2 Susan Werners to make up for her. And thing about these two is they were cowritten by Greg Simon who happens to be a friend of a friend of mine. Weird he cowrote two songs, and that they both showed up here. Both are phenomenal songs that really can make one think, I recommend doing your best to find both of them. Or if you can't find them, ask me and I'll email them to you. Susan Werner is an AMAZING artist and I recommmend that each and every one of you find her stuff and learn to love it as much as I have :) Anyway, I was going to do memories, but none of these songs trigger significant ones, so I'll go with lyrics this week.

I see no theme going on, anyone else see one?

Thursday, May 21, 2009

 18 things I figured people would know....but I thought wrong

So the latest facebook thing is these quizzes about oneself for friends to take. the first one I did nobody got over 50% and most got like 12%. The second one people did better, but nobody got 100% yet. SO here I will give all the answers to both and then if you haven't already taken them, you can go and impress the hell out of everyone...

I have lived in 10 states. NJ, NY, PA, MA, GA, AZ, MD, VT, NC and TX.

I went through 4 different majors- Psych, CDFR, and Education at IUP and then Nuclear Medicine at LGC.

My first kitten's name was Mittens. We had him (her? I don't remember) for a very short time. She scratched the crap out of everything in the house, including me, so my mom gave her away.

My first celeb crush was on Mr. Rogers. I loved when he sang "You Can Never Go Down the Drain"

I have only been to 2 other countries other than the US- Canada and Mexico. I still don't have a passport. I wish I had traveled more and hopefully someday I will.

I do not have a middle name.

I LOVE LOVE LOVE Garnets. Not only are they my birthstone, but they are my "power stone". I wear them every day, and I carry some in my pocket when I feel like I need extra strength.

I have a purple Saturn. I fell in love with it because it was Purple.

I have a travelling Teddy Bear named Oatmeal. I also refer to him often as "The Oatster". He rawks. Not only does he travel with me anywhere I go, but I sleep with him every night.

In college we were all about the Kool Aid and Purplesaurus Rex is my favorite. It's basically grape lemonade.

I have never seen Empire Strikes Back or Return of the Jedi, the only reason I ever saw Star Wars was because I lost a bet. I have never seen any of the Indiana Jones movies. I also never saw Top Gun. I do LOVE Wizard of Oz and essentially would consider that my favorite movie.

I saw NKOTB in concert at Great Adventure when I took my mom's friend's daughter (who now I consider my friend but back then she was way younger than I was) I saw The Police in 2007, I saw Billy Joel with my friend, her mom, and her grandmom. I always thought it was neat that his music appealed to 3 generations. I saw Bob Dylan when the Alarm opened for him. I only stayed for a few songs cuz he really doesn't do it for me. Plus it was at an outdoor arena and yet I was getting a contact buzz. I have always wanted to see REM but I have either not had the money or someone to go with when they were around, or they didn't come to where I was when I did have the money or people to go with. Perhaps someday.

I have never been to the pacific northwest. I really hope to make it there in the not too distant future. At one point towards the end of college I considered moving to Seattle- hell it was the early 90's, who didn't want to live there then? But I never got around to it. Remember, I am very fickle and have geography ADD.

First job ever was at the Brick Oven Bake Shop. First mall job was at Victoria's Secret. I still have my giant terry robe that I got that first Christmas that I worked there. Seamus has torn it up so there are tons of strings sticking off of it, but I can't bear to give it up. My mom keeps buying me new robes which I will wear, but when they get old I go back to this ancient one. Go figure. I then worked as a manager for Bath and Body Works, and when I wanted to leave there I thought I should choose a job where I wouldn't spend half my paycheck.... so I got a job at Gymboree. Right when my best friend had a baby. She was very well dressed, and I spent a nice chunk of my paycheck there after all. Never worked at the Body Shop.

I just got a brand new cell phone and it's purple. I love love love it! Not just because it's purple, but I do love that about it too. It's QWERTY (which is fun to type, try it!) and I used to hate texting but now I do it daily :)

I think the first time I ever really swooned over guyliner was David Cook. But now I love it. Love Ricarus Alpert's rocking of it, and last night I LOVED Adam Lambert's glass shard looking guyliner. hot! hot! hot!

We all know who the fabulous Lost actor is who left a comment here. YAY Jorge!!

And I actually won't talk about the last one here. I try to keep certain details of my life out of this blog, and that's one of them. Since I work with a local chapter and have mentioned some details of that on here, and wasn't necessarily the most positive about some of the people involved, I am pleading the fifth. If you want to know, go look at my flair on my fb profile.
So there you go! 18 random lame facts about myself. Now go kick booty on the quizzes!! :)

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

 I totally get it now

So about 2 months ago my friend gave me the first 3 Twilight books to read. I have resisted a bit because I usually can't get on board with something so trendy. Plus I had some resentments towards them using and thus branding the name "Twilight" because that was a name I used on the interwebs back in the early 90's. I felt like they stole it from me!

Plus I liked vampires back during the whole Lestat era and couldn't really see it getting much better than that. I mean c'mon, a rockstar vampire who the author used Sting as inspiration? Plus Anne Rice has some pretty amazing characters even if her writing is wordy as all get out.

I remember in college we read Queen of the Damned and decided it would make an awesome movie and "casted" it. Needless to say when the movie came out our choices were MUCH better than the ones they went with. In fact, I didn't even bother with the movie. I saw Interview and really couldn't get on board with Tom Cruise so it kinda killed the whole series for me.

I did recently stumble across a new book in the series, it was actually Lestat and the Mayfair Witches together. I thought it kinda sucked, but it was an abridged audio version, so perhaps the real one was better. Dunno. Anyway, I figured I was over Vampires.

And then I ran out of stuff to read. So I turned to the Twilight books I'd held on to for a few months.

And now I get it. I cant explain it, but I get it. I think that there is some kind of spell woven into these books. I have never been as invested in characters as I became in these. It was almost as if I was literally feeling the same emotions Bella was having. I was falling in love with a fictional character. Odd. Last night I stayed up till 5am to read the second one. I am completely captivated.

Oh and since I didn't see the movie or even really pay attention to ads for it I don't really see those actors as these characters. For some reason, as I was reading I realized that I started picturing Adam Lambert as Edward. I know Edward's hair is supposed to have more red in it, but can't you see Adam as a hot vampire? Even though I know he prefers to smooch boys instead of girls, he is perfect for the role of Edward in my mind. So there it is.

And even though I don't really care who wins on Idol tonight, I think they are both equally talented and deserving, a sneaking part of me that has a crush on Edward Cullen wants Adam to win because of that. I know, I'm pathetic. I do think that Kris might win though... We shall see!!

And now I'm going to read a bit before the Idol finale :)

Friday, May 15, 2009

 Friday Shuffle... Multiple Personality Disorder version

So I am in another cycle of insomnia. Kinda sucks. But it could be worse, I could have to get up early tomorrow...

So I decided to write a post, but wasn't really feeling a topic, so since it's technically Friday, I thought I'd go with the old fallback, Friday Shuffle.

I did the shuffling before starting to write because I wanted to see if there as some type of theme that came up that would lead me to a decent topic. The only thing this shows is that I have the most random taste in music, EVER.

One thing surprised me though, TWO (2) songs from the Lost Mix that Barb made me that I have now added to my itunes showed up. Weird, right? And of course 2 Dar Williams songs showed up too, because she likes to be on Friday Shuffles. Also, 2 Frat party dancing songs, 2 Atlanta songs and 2 songs that remind me of concerts I've been to and 2 songs that remind me of jobs I've had...weird so I guess it's the MPD/Noah's Ark version actually :)

Since the lyrics on these songs are so very very random, rather than doing lyric quotes along with each, I'll just do a memory that goes with each song :)

1. And a God Descended - Dar Williams
honestly, no particular memory with this song, just Dar in general makes me think of my friends Amanda and Blakely

2. You All Everybody - Drive Shaft
when I watched the first season of Lost I did it all in one weekend, right before the second season started. That was the best weekend... no commercials, and no waiting for the next episode! I can't believe I have to wait 8 months for it to come back!! NO FAIR!

3. I Need Love - LL Cool J
freshman year at Hofstra, I'd give more details, but I'd rather keep them to myself ;)

4. Wild Wild West - Kool Moe Dee
This song is one of the ultimate beer slop soaked fraternity basement dancing songs.

5. Leavin On Your Mind - Patsy Cline
Another Lost song :) But it actually reminds me more of (going way back here...) yesterday :) I spent most of the day listening to the Lost CD Barb made me then watched the season finale which was pretty damn good...

6. Teen Angst - Cracker
Atlanta. This song was ubiquitous on 99x, the radio station I was devoted to. Saw Cracker 2x in concert too, but not on purpose, once was when they played with the Spin Doctors and Gin Blossoms (aka the Spin, Gin, and Crack tour) and the other time was the WBCN River Rave. They are pretty decent live :)

7. I Can Love You Better - Dixie Chicks
This was a Bath and Body Works song. I was a manager there for several years and we had these tapes we had to play... some months were better than others and got played A LOT. Plus they repeated every few hours so I'd hear the same songs 2-4 times in a shift. It still amazes me that I still love many songs from BBW tapes...

8. Monkey Man - Special Beat
Special Beat opened for Sting one year...It was either the Soul Cages or Ten Sumner's Tales tour, their music makes you want to move.

9. Put Me Down - Cranberries
Atlanta again, but not 99x. I had a great job for a while...I worked for a guy who was an amazing man, but a crappy businessman. The company closed after just a few short months, due to many reasons, but while I was there I had a few CD's I was obsessed with and played constantly, this was on one of them...

10. Better Things - Dar Williams
My favorite Dar song... I cannot be in a bad mood when I hear this song, so I have used it MANY MANY times to bring me up, I can't even begin to choose just one, but many times I blasted this on the way to or from work on a bad day.

and a bonus because it made me smile:
Someday I Suppose - Mighty Mighty Bosstones
This song should remind me of an ex boyfriend because he put it on a mix tape for me, but it actually reminds me of another guy who will always hold a place in my heart for many reaswons... most of which I will not get into here, but one being that he was the stop/stayover on my St Louis leg of my cross country drive :D

Ok since I've been writing this, 2 U2 songs and a second Cracker song have played. What is up with all these pairs? Kinda cool though :) The one that's on now, Get Off This, has lyrics that fit a recent post of mine, so I will leave you with those lyrics:

Monday, May 11, 2009

 I'm so cranky even I don't want to be around me

No big reason, although lots of little reasons I guess.

It just sucks. No more good mood for me.

I may be being overly sensitive, but I'm feeling a bit of hurt feelings over something nonspecific. I hate feeling this way.

Also...

I have been waiting for 3 days (not counting the weekend) for a phone call. I have a hunch it won't happen today either which means tomorrow is another day of waiting. I hate waiting. I'd almost even rather it be bad news than to keep being in this state of limbo.

Ringo just jumped up, stood on my chest and burped in my face. Thank GOD I love him or I'd be even crankier, but he just gave me my first smile of the day. Cat's rock.

Saturday, May 09, 2009

 Celebrity blog comments and a broken meower...

So as y'all can see, I dedicated my blog post yesterday to the fabulous Jorge Garcia and it worked! Googlebot alerted him and he left a comment!! I like that he took the time to actually reply. It's so nice to see a celebrity who is still down to earth. I was a fan before, but I am a HUGE fan now. It totally made my night and I love that he thanked me for thanking him. So now I am thanking him for thanking me for thanking him. This could be endless ;) I realize I didn't mention that there is an expiration on my invitation...if I do end up moving away from here next June. Since I doubt his visit will ever happen, I don't think it'll be an issue though :)

So regarding the broken meower... poor Ringo Stu Kitty has laryngitis again. So here is where I tell my REALLY BAD JOKE... ready? "When is a kitty not a kitty? When it's hoarse!" HAHAHA! Ok yeah, I warned you it was really bad.

For those of you who have been long time readers, you know that RSK has chronic pancreatitis. For the last 10 days or so he's been having a bit of a flare up. Fortunately he doesn't get REALLY sick, but he does puke a lot. He eats a lot too- he is not a normal cat, but when we first started dealing with this it was because of his ravenous appetite... I thought he might have been hyperthyroid from the volume of food he was eating and the weight loss going along with it....turns out he was puking up everything and that's why he was always hungry. So we just need to make sure he doesn't get dehydrated and is not losing weight, and we can just sorta glide through these flare ups.

Well the plentiful puking leads to him having no voice. Now any of you who have ever met him, or who have ever talked to me on the phone know that he is a TALKATIVE kitty. But after mucho pukes, he gets all raspy and squeaky, but yet he still keeps trying to talk, which is really funny and quite pathetic. I do feel bad laughing at my sick kitty....a bit. But since he seems fine overall, I know he's not really sick (if he gets lethargic we worry) so it's ok to laugh a little.

And he loves when I laugh, he comes up and gives me bonks and stuff and so I have no guilt :)

So that's my story today. I am the coolest blogger ever because Jorge Garcia left me a comment, and I am a quasi mean mom because I laugh at my kitty with the broken meower.

Life's ok :)

Friday, May 08, 2009

 A blog post about Jorge Garcia

I am going to mention his name more than a few times because he googles himself and I'd love to see if he actually finds this post... this post about Jorge Garcia...

So why is this blog post about Jorge Garcia? Well other than the fact that he's a fabulous actor and plays one of my favoritest characters in the history of TV, it's because I just discovered his blog.

The other day my friend Barb posted a list of songs she was burning onto a Lost themed CD... and I saw that "You All Everybody" was missing from her list. When I asked her about it she told me she couldn't locate it. So of course, being the dork that I am, I had to find it, download it, then email it to her. She was wicked excited and we started emailing back and forth about the show, as we are both HUGE fans. I had commented to her about how much I adore all scenes with Miles and Hurley because I LOVE both of their characters separately, and together they are hysterical :)

So Barb replied and asked if I had seen the pictures he had posted of the two of them on his blog. I hadn't even known Jorge Garcia HAD a blog, so I promptly had to go :)

I spent several hours last night and this morning reading the entire thing, and now I appreciate him more than I even would have expected! Even if you aren't a Lost fan, you should go check it out!

Interestingly enough, last night I was discussing the Topsy Turvey tomato thingies with a friend and Jorge Garcia actually reviews them on his blog. I had always been tempted to get them, because I LOVE LOVE LOVE me some fresh garden tomatoes and being that I live in a second floor penthouse I don't have a yard. I thought that would work nicely on my porch. Sadly though, Jorge Garcia gives them a thumbs down. I am glad though that I never spent my money on them. I'll just have to head up to Jersey this summer and get some tomatoes there. Interestingly enough, my mom's friend has the best tomatoes in the world in her garden. No joke! I assume she has magic dirt or something? Anyway, everyone agrees who's ever tasted one that Wanda has the best. And she always hooks me up whenever I go up to visit my mom.

Ok, enough with the tomato tangent...

Jorge, I hope you found your way here through your googlebot. (I think I wrote your name enough times!) I just wanted to thank you for bringing so much laughter and so many smiles into my life first through Hurley, and now through your blog. You totally rock! And if you're ever in the Triangle Area of NC, drop me a line and I'd love to take you out for some Carolina Barbecue (different from everywhere else in the world!) and a drink at the Best Wine Bar anywhere (ok I'm biased cuz my friend owns it) (but Colin Firth was there last week so it can't suck...(ok he was only there cuz they are filming in the area, and I would have rathered if it had been Andrew McCarthy who had gone, since I've loved him since St Elmo's, but don't tell Colin that he totally doesn't do it for me, but anyway...) and they held the Mammoth Records 21st birthday party at their other location the week before...) Anyway, thanks again for the smiles. Oh and tell your girlfriend I read her blog too and loved her post about driving far far far for a turkey sammich :)


And for everyone else who's interested, here is Barb's fabu Lost CD mix. She's sending me a copy since I hooked her up with Drive Shaft and I can't wait to get it!!


1. Joe Purdy - Wash Away
2. Driveshaft - You All Everybody
3. Damien Rice - Delicate
4. Patsy Cline - Leavin' On Your Mind
5. Bob Marley - Redemption Song
6. Mama Cass - Make Your Own Kind of Music
7. The Drifters - Up On The Roof
8. Dave Matthews Band - Stay (Wasting Time)
9. Staind - Outside
10. Petula Clark - Downtown
11. Sarah McLachlan - Building A Mystery
12. Ryan Adams - Wonderwall (couldn't find the Charlie Pace cover!)
13. The Hollies - Carrie-Anne
14. Nirvana - Scentless Apprentice
15. Buddy Holly - Everyday
16. Pixies - Gouge Away
17. Geronimo Jackson - Dharma Lady
18. Blues Image - Ride Captain Ride
19. Albert Hammond - It Never Rains in Southern California
20. Captain & Tennille - Love Will Keep Us Together
21. The Fray - You Found Me (Season 5 Promo video: http://abc.go.com/primetime/lost/index?pn=index&clipId=156898)

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

 Here's a pet peeve...

People who bitch and bitch and bitch about things but do nothing to try and fix them.

If you're miserable, fix it.

If you don't like the way the world around you is... do something proactive.

But bitching is not going to get you anywhere but alienated from your friends who are sick of listening to you bitch.

That's all, thanks for letting me vent :)

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

 disappointment

That's today for me.

And when I was asked "you're mad, aren't you?" and my answer was that I was not mad, but disappointed, I realize I'd rather be mad.

With anger you can feel it, and then let it go. Disappointment is a bit of anger but with a whole lot of sadness. And unfortunately, it lingers.

With anger you can totally put the blame on someone else. But with disappointment there is no real blame.

Anyway, it totally blows.

Friday, April 24, 2009

 So perhaps just THAT Rite Aid sucks...

Someone from Rite Aid who did read my blog post has reached out to me for more information. I hope that he is not just blowing smoke up my butt and pretending to care.

I think I maybe be making this my mission to get that list changed.

That pharmacist never should have told me to "just worry about myself" (sic)

That is what made me realize just how important it is to make sure that nobody else has to deal with a situation similar to mine. (I feel like John Locke on Lost-- "DON'T TELL ME WHAT I CAN'T DO!")

So thanks to Rite Aid Eric for reaching out to me, and I look forward to hearing how this was resolved.

And I wonder, is your whole job to google your company and follow up on what people say about them? That's actually pretty cool. Technology may be deleting some jobs, but look how it's brought new ones into existence! So what's your title? Chief Googler for Customer Service?

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

 and yet...another reason why Rite Aid sucks...

So Rite Aid has been googling themselves and found their way here.

They now know that I was given the wrong drug just because it was "on the list" and that I got appallingly scolded by the pharmacist for trying to make her understand that it was still wrong even if it was on the list.

And yet, they did not care enough to leave a comment to try and contact me to find which location this was.

Way to be on top of things guys!!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

 Rite Aid sucks

So I got my correct prescription today, along with a scolding from the Rite Aid pharmacist. She showed me her list which she thought proved she was right. I explained that I believed her that the list said so, but it is NOT the same thing but she told me that the list said it was.

Aren't pharmacists supposed to be educated? Shouldn't she have grasped the concept?

So here's the whole story...

From the years 1998 - 2004 I had 5 surgeries and lost one ovary due to endometriosis. This is a condition that is often treated with hormone manipulation because estrogen is the enemy. One way they manipulate the hormones is with the use of birth control pills. When I was going through all of this at first, we tried several different pills to find one that worked for me. Some birth control pills are monophasic and some are triphasic-- in other words, some give a continuous dose of the hormone the entire 21 days, and some change the dosage each week.

Hormones are a pretty delicate thing, and you can really screw someone up with them. I tried triphasic ones and I was a basket case on them, plus it made my endo worse. Finally, we found one that worked, one that is monphasic. It is really is crucial for me to keep my levels even to keep the endo at bay.

So I was on a monophasic for many many years. In 2007 I lost my health insurance and wasn't in a relationship and I was completely pain free from the endo so I decided to go off the hormones.

After the last few months I decided that in order to keep the endo at bay, it was time to go back on. I got the doctor to call in the exact monophasic pill I had been on for many many many years.

I picked up my pills yesterday and it was a triphasic one. I explained this to the pharmacist and she insisted that because it was on the list, it was the same thing.

I called the hospital pharmacy because I thought maybe I was nuts. That I might have somehow forgotten the name of a pill I took forever and knew was a monophasic. She looked it up, I was right, it was a monophasic, and the substitution that Rite Aid gave me was definitely a triphasic, and definitely not the same medication in generic form.

And yet, this pharmacist at Rite Aid swears that because it was on the list, that it was. She was not open or caring enough about the health and well being of her customers to accept the fact that the list might be mistaken. I explained to her the difference between monophasic and triphasic pills (shouldn't the pharmacist be explaining this to me??) and that the list is not accurate and I said that I had concerns that other patients might be given the wrong pill too. She told me to worry about myself and not others.

So someone else might end up having their hormones completely thrown out of wack, causing who knows what problems because of something a list says.

If she were a proactive, thoughtful pharmacist, she would have investigated, realized the discrepancy, and contacted the authors of said list to get it straightened out.

I am pretty sure that I will be switching pharmacies.

Monday, April 20, 2009

 SICK!

I have been on hiatus due to my health. I went to see my friend Steve in Chitty Chitty Bang Bang a few weeks ago and there were lots of snotty kids in the audience. A few days later both myself and my friend, Ali, who went with me got VERY VERY SICK. Stoopit snotty kids! We both ended up with ear infections (I had 2, go me!) and sinus crap, and then lungs... Not at all pretty.

I am pleased to say though that it is not TB! Ok not that I thought it was... but I had my annual appointment for my ppd test for work during this time and that was negative. It was handy that it coincided with my illness so I got some drugs for that. My doc said my one ear was "Majorly bulging" which kinda freaked me out. I was never the kind of kid who got ear infections, but I know many who were, who had their ear drums perf regularly. I am terrified of this happening and I'm guessing it was close to happening if I was "majorly bulging". Although it no longer hurts, I really can't hear very well out of my left ear so I almost wonder if it did perf? I dont know, does that hurt like hell or does it stop hurting because the pressure is relieved? (kinda how once your appendix bursts the pain stops)

Whatever, at least I'm feeling well now. Other than the fact that the allergies are kinda kicking in...

So remember last July when I said I loaded all sorts of crap in my kitchen while they cleaned my carpets? Well I finally got everything out of the kitchen and just today I brought in the kitchen chairs that had been out on the porch this whole time. (I think I have only eaten about 4 meals at my kitchen table in the 4 years I have lived here!) I had to wash them down because they were YELLOW with pollen. I mean COVERED! and then of course I was sneezing like a fool. Thank GOD for Claritin :)

In other news I went to the new Rite Aid to get a prescription filled and they gave me the wrong thing! I called and they claimed that what they gave me was an approved generic substitute. Except it was NOT THE SAME THING. I thought I was crazy so I called the hospital I used to work at's outpatient pharmacy where I used to get scripts filled (and this, which I used to take back then) and she confirmed that what I got was what I thought and NOT what tried to give me. The smart pharmacist told me what IS the approved generic alternative and so I called Rite Aid back and told them to get me that instead. It scares me that this pharmacist kept saying that what she gave me was on the list so it was ok. The list is wrong. I explained to her how it was wrong, how it was different... blah blah, but since her list said it, it must be...whatever...

So now I've lost my train of thought thanks to several IM's so I'm just going to end this here :)

Sunday, April 05, 2009

 Something I just realized...

I laugh easier than I ever did before.

It used to be that I would RARELY laugh at something I read or saw. LOL was just a computer shorthand for "that's amusing" to me rather than actually meaning I laughed out loud. Oh sure I would smile, or chuckle, but no full on laughs!

But in the past 6 weeks or so (ever since the beginning of my unexplained happiness) I realize that I LOL out loud all the time! And you know what? It's awesome. I suspect that it's not just the mood prompting the laughter, but also the laughter prompting the mood.

I also smile more. Oh sure I smiled often before now, but now I catch myself smiling for no reason. This morning I had no good breakfast foods in the house so I decided to enjoy this GORGEOUS day and take a walk to the bagel place that's about a mile away. On said walk I saw Dogwood trees in full bloom- I hadn't noticed any others down here to my recollection. That made me smile. We lived in a house when I was small that had a Dogwood in the front yard and since I was pretty small at the time I have very few memories of that place, but many of them involve that yard and that tree. So as then I happened upon some pansies, which are a flower that remind me of my grandmother. Normally these make me smile, but I realized I was still smiling from the Dogwood. Then I passed some girl also taking a walk and she smiled at me and I realized it was because I STILL had the smile on my face.

And as I sit here typing this guess what I'm doing? Smiling :)

My hope for you is that as you read this that it makes you smile too :)

Saturday, April 04, 2009

 Livin in a box...living in a cardboard box

So recently I mentioned that I reconnected with my old roommate, JT. That day we chatted she gave me what I consider to be once of the best compliments I have ever received, and that has turned into a new concept for me...

She said that she and I could be doing nothing more than sitting in a cardboard box and we would still have a blast together.

So this brought up the idea of "cardboard box friends". How many people do you have in your life that you would classify under this title? I am fortunate enough to have more than a few :)

These are people that I just can laugh my ass off even during the most lame of circumstances. Good, bad, or indifferent, these people make my life fun.

For example... once in college Biff and I were both going through a bit of a seasonal/situational funk and so we decided to run away. For this adventure we chose to rent a car (we'll call him Dave) and on the way back we accidentally locked the keys in Dave at the Blue Mountain rest stop. Oh yeah there was also a picture of Fred Savage on the dashboard. We were trapped at this rest stop for several hours while we waited for a locksmith. And we didn't have any money, bu they took pity on us at the fast food place at the rest stop and gave us their left over breakfast. And we knew the car would be returned late and there would be an even bigger charge. And yet the memory I hold from this experience is of a) being taunted by Kevin Arnold and b) laughing....LOTS of laughing.

That is a true cardboard box friend. (in fact, at this point I think we would have preferred to be in a box than in the situation we were in!)

I am very blessed by a large number of CBB friends and I realize that I am too far away from many of them. I have made a decision that unless something significant changes in my life in the next year that I will be moving to Atlanta in May of 2010. I have multiple cardboard box friends there and my soul already feels lighter and happier about my trapped Raleigh situation having made this decision.

So yay for CBBF! and YAY for plans!

Thursday, April 02, 2009

 If I were an artist...

Or a musician, or even a writer of more than just a lame blog...

Just now I looked out the window and saw a brilliant red winter cardinal, sitting on a tree that has the buds of spring, with leaves on the ground underneath like fall, with rain falling like summer...

I feel like this is a song/poem/picture just waiting to be told and shared...

I wish I had it in me to convey the emotion that I just got looking at it...

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

 I wish March had only 30 days

I have put off posting all day today because I am blue and I just didn't want to come here in that mood.

But I had no choice since it's the LAST day of BloMo.

So here I am, doing a half assed lameo post about nothing good, just so that I can fulfill my blomo obligations.

My neighbor who I love of whom I have spoken in the past moved out today. I am going to miss her very much. My lease renewal paperwork just came and I have come to realize that I don't want to live in Raleigh anymore but I cannot afford to move so I am essentially trapped.

I don't do trapped well.

Things I am hoping for don't seem to be coming to fruition either.

That "something's coming" feeling that I'd been having has been kinda replaced by a feeling of stuck in limbo. And that sucks. And not in a good way.

So I hate to leave this super positive month on this horribly down note, but I just can't help it. Sorry.

Maybe it's an early April fool's joke and tomorrow life will not suck again :)

Monday, March 30, 2009

 A peek into my crazy

Ok don't get all excited, I'm not going to let you peek into my crazy today.

It's MY crazy and I don't really choose to share it often. There are a few people who have a bit of a clue about all some of my secret crazies that I can mask well to the rest of the world, but I don't think that there is anyone who knows them all...

In the last few days I have let 2 different people peek at some of my crazy and it's kinda weird. The first peek I gave was actually to the friend I had dinner with in Danville, which is really a shocker since we never were that close. I didn't give him any of the good stuff though, and I'm not sure how we even got on topic, but it just sorta flowed into something that I have never actually talked about with anyone ever. It wasn't really deep intense stuff, so I don' t even know if he realizes he peeked, but it was still thoughts that I keep tucked inside and I am still surprised that they slipped out.

Then yesterday I was having a conversation with another friend and I opened the door on another one of my crazies. Today I expanded on that mess that is my mind in an email. But along with the conversation that is my crazy, we also had been talking about trust (in fact, the other stuff just sorta flowed from the trust conversation) and I realize that I might be having some trust breakthroughs...

I have never had any problems trusting men I am in relationships with, which seems odd, considering I have HUGE issues with trusting friends...

About 5 years ago I was fuct over LARGE by someone I considered a good friend, and she managed to tear apart a group of mutual friends with her lies and manipulations which made me lose trust in those friends too... Since then, I have been really careful about who I give my confidence to...

Realizing that I just opened up even just a wee bit twice in the past few days makes me wonder if I might have actually healed from that broken heart from 5 years ago and I may have come out even better on the other end.

Go figure.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

 Bliss

That's me right now.

Complete happiness.

Not over anything in particular, although it was a gorgeous day and I had a lovely afternoon, but I just feel really happy right now.

Nothing in my life is exceedingly fabulous, and some could argue that parts of it are sub-par....

And yet, right now, as I sit here typing this, I am feeling quite blissful.

And I'm just going to go with it :) And my wish for each and every one of you, dear readers, (even those of you who are in lurkful hiding) is that you can feel the same way I do right now :) <3

Saturday, March 28, 2009

 Super Quick Post

Not sure what time I'll be home later so I figure I better get this in just to be safe.

Today I am headed to the town of Danville to meet up with an old HS friend. He said he's taking me to a redneck karaoke bar. Should be interesting!

I have no idea if we shall have a nice dinner and I'll be home by 9pm or if we'll have a blast and I won't be back till after midnight...

He's a really fun guy, so I suspect it might be choice B, but he is in town for work, so it might end up being choice A. Either way, I'm just happy to have plans on a Saturday night :)

I am NOT happy though that I still cannot find my ipod and will be forced to listen to radio for this 90+ minute journey to where he is... I have an old cd player that I am going to attempt to plug into the wire that normally plugs into my ipod to see if that works, but I remember from when diskmen were all the rage that they eat batteries like I eat tootsie rolls. I am bringing two spare sets of rechargable batteries to hopefully make it last... if not, it's crap radio for me!

Well I think I should probably go get a shower now since I think I have to leave in like 40 minutes...

I'll let yinz know how it goes tomorrow!

Friday, March 27, 2009

 a rainy day Friday Shuffle

kinda a dreary day out there today... my sinuses are not a fan of the low pressure either. I took some benedryl last night and am feeling pretty groggified still. I'm curious to see if my itunes picks up on the dreariness and groggification... Shall we see?

How Beautiful You Are - The Cure
You want to know why I hate you?
Well I'll try and explain...

I Shall Be Released - Sting, U2, Peter Gabriel
Now yonder stands a man in this lonely crowd
A man who swears he's not to blame
All day long I hear him shouting so loud
Just crying out that he was framed

Hey You - The Cure
Hey you!!!
Yes you
Yes you the one that looks delirious

The Wheel - Edie Brickell and the New Bohemians
All your thoughts are in another head,
your dreams are sleeping in a different bed.
The force that moves you is a circular breath,
of life and death going round and round and round.

Falling - Susanna Hoffs
Piece by piece I come undone
Lose my equilibrium
I crash but I don't care
Nothing to hold on to

What About Love - Heart
Ive been lonely
Ive been waiting for you
I'm pretending and that's all I can do
The love I'm sending
Ain't making it through to your heart

We Work the Black Seam - Sting
And should the children weep
The turning world will sing their souls to sleep
When you have sunk without a trace
The universe will suck me into place

I'm Alive - David Cook (Neil Diamond night on Idol)
Take a walk, you can hardly breathe the air
Look around, it's a hard life everywhere
People talk, but they never really care
On the street, there's a feeling of despair

I've Seen Better Days - Citizen King
I'm faded, flat busted;
I've been jaded I've been dusted.
I know that I've seen better days.

Black Dog - Led Zeppelin
Didn't take too long 'fore I found out
What people mean by down and out.

Ok so I kinda made it work with the depressive gloom with the lyrics. I think I'm Alive is one of the most happy, upbeat, inspirational songs ever, but I had to make it work :)

Not that I'm depressed or anything, but it does kinda seem like the world around me is a bit right now...

As for me-
I'm alive
And I don't care much for words of doom
If it's love you need, well I got the room
It's a simple thing that came to me
And I thank God I'm alive
I can take all that life has got to give
If I got someone to share it with
I got love and love is all you really need
I'm alive

Thursday, March 26, 2009

 Come out, come out, whoever you are!

Seriously, you don't need a blogger account to leave comments anymore, you can do an open id one.

I know there are some of you out there reading who have never left a comment, and I only have a slight idea who y'all might be.

Please take the time to leave me a comment today so I can stop wondering :)

I had a tough day, I deserve it...

What kind of tough day you ask? Well I was exaggerating. But I did just dump a whole lot of spaghetti sauce all down my front and it landed in a puddle in my lap. I stripped down and put it right into the washer and found that the sauce had stained my left breast orange. It's attractive....

Well as soon as the washer is done I'll be off for the shower!

SO leave a comment, share with me the latest food you've dropped on your lap :)

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

 you gotta have faith faith faith

Life can be surprising at times. I think I've finally figured it out- just when you expect things to go one way, they shock the hell out of you and go a different direction.

Of course things don't always worth this way, so it keeps me on my toes. Especially in the work world. But I'm hoping to be surprised this time...

But in my personal life- it seems status quo.

Over the course of the past 9 years I have truly turned from a half empty girl to a half full one. Partly sunny vs partly cloudy. But some days I see the clouds or notice what's missing. And that seems to be right about when I am happily proven wrong.

I just have to remember, I gotta have faith faith faith... BAYBEE....

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

 Poseidon and the Bitter Bug

Go here and give it a listen!

I REALLY shouldn't be spending money right now, but I splurged and spent the $7.49 on the download and am SO happy I did! It has been on non-stop repeat for several hours and will probably stay that way for many days to come.

It is like a "best of" the Indigo Girls, except it's all new. It has all of their best sounds in fresh fun songs. Today was a lovely sunshiney day and it was the perfect soundtrack to accompany the day.

I am in love <3

Monday, March 23, 2009

 Another great day :)

And it's not even thanks to facebook for once!!!

First we had our annual at the vet...and it did not go as badly as visits past! It wasn't perfect, but I'm still proud of Ringo for being really good for most of the appointment. How did we accomplish this you ask? Music. My friend who is currently working on his new album has been sending me songs as he records them, and there were 2 in particular that Ringo loved. The one as soon as it started he got up from across the room, came over, sat on right next to the computer, paws and head right over the speakers. I played the song on repeat for a while and he said there just in awe of the song. As soon as I turned it off he got up and left. So I figured he must really like the song.

My cell phone has an MP3 player in it so I put that and a few others he seems to like on it for the visit. I put my phone next to his carrier playing his favorite while we waited for the doctor and while the vet examined his brother. Normally through all of this he would be growling and hissing and sounding like a scary badass, but he didn't at all. He even got on the scale with no complaints!

For his actual exam I turned the music off so the vet could hear his heart and whatnot and this is when he started up with his growling and hissing and whatnot... But all in all, he was REALLY GOOD. I am so proud of him! And so greatful for my friend's music that soothed this savage beast :)

So then later the day got even better...

My old roommate from my senior year is one of the most important special people to ever touch my life. She helped me to really learn how to be less uptight and have fun. And I lost touch with her about 5 years ago and have often thought about her. Well thanks to facebook and me reconnecting with so many, I got inspired. I managed to track down her parents phone number, and then called her mom when I got home from the vet. Mom was happy to hear from me and gave me JT's phone number, I called, left a message and then she called back a bit ago and we just had the best conversation filled with love and laughter.

Isn't life swell???

Sunday, March 22, 2009

 Kind person or Busybody?

So my fabulous neighbor called yesterday to check on me... why? Because the new neighbor on the other side of me was worried about me. She has never met me, but the other day it rained and *gasp* I didn't shut the front room windows!! Get this- she actually called the office about me! They told her not to worry, that Brenda and I were tight and she had a key, so this chick must have been stalking Brenda out the window or something because she approached her to ask her to check on me.

Seriously?

I don't shut windows. I like fresh air. There was nothing of value getting wet. And this was the only clue she had that something might be wrong. It could have been that I simply wasn't home!

Either way, Brenda says she is very nice, so I will make an effort at some point soon to go meet her and thank her for her concern. I guess there is a good chance that she's just a very caring woman and we could end up friends.

I fear that it's Gladys Kravitz though who has moved in...

Saturday, March 21, 2009

 Tarheel Kitty Cat

Ever since we started watching the 'heels play, Seamus has been a good luck charm for them.

If he watches the game with me, they win, plain and simple.

Today they were looking pretty shaky against LSU...were actually down at one point!

I went in the other room, got Seamus, and suddenly, they started RAWKING!

And now they are headed to the Sweet Sixteen!

I hope he watches each game with me and makes Obama's final pick come through!!